Wanting What the Soul Craves

You know those days where you just feel blah?  Not inspired, stump-like and wondering where the heck the magic in your own life went?  I had one of those last week.  

I complained, I stewed and then I pulled out the Desire Map.  Whoooosh... Synchronicities started flying in left and right (8, count em 8 coincidences, that I had experienced and overlooked in that day alone) and I got to the bottom of my shit.  What I really want more than anything...

I want to be Worshipped 

 

As soon as I wrote it, I panicked.  "Oh my god, did you really write this?" shouted my brain.   What a selfish diva-y thing to want. 

I breathed through my heart whilst it seized up and stepped back.  Obviously, yes some part of me really wants to be worshipped.


Ok, just breathe and allow.  If I do as the Goddess that is Danielle LaPorte reminds us: that by following our Desires, we find the way to the fullest expression of our Soul: then I must honor this little truth and see what happens if I embrace it.  

"The fact is, they are your current desires and they're trying to show you something: the way to your Soul."   

Desire Map pg. 60    

So thus embracing, writing, drawing, and journaling the heck out of this truth, I went to bed dreaming upon my being worshiped and letting go of the Guilt, Shame, Ego that tried to come in with it. 

The next day, I went to the office and, lo and behold, the worshipping had begun.

- a bag of chocolate sat upon my desk and  a fresh orchid on my side table -

No note, no card, no "hey thanks for that" message, just the gifts lay waiting.  

And even a week later, it continues... I received not one, but two, amazing gifts of hand made jewelry from clients.  Both so soulful and lovely in their perfection and neither artist knowing the depth of the gift she has shared. 

I feel so very blessed and honor the part of me that really wants to be worshipped.  When we can be in full out honesty with our Soul, the synchronicities can begin to flow and more of Us comes into the world.  

"I am in service to the Universe and by honoring my own truth, I can serve in the full magnitude of the the potential my soul holds for me."  Thus is my prayer and how I temper my ego each time core desires rise up to the surface.

Learning the Tarot

The Tarot is a complex and intuitive joy ride.  If you want to learn, be patient but also know you personal meaning carries more weight than anyone else's interpretations!  Dive in and enjoy the journey. 

I have been a full on medium and intuitive most of my life, but it was only 2 summers ago that I incorporated the tarot into my psychic tool box.  I enjoy it's rich imagery and find deeper meaning the more I use it.  Some readings are just straight up tarot readings-- allowing the wisdom of the cards to be the only vehicle for messages to arrive-- while other times I will allow the messages to come in and the tarot to act as confirmation to what I'm receiving. 


We will all have our own rhythm, story and relationship with the Tarot.  It is a beneficial tool for personal insight and soul development.   If you'd like to learn start with the traditional Rider Waite, it's the oldest deck and contains the most potent archetypal imagery.  Learn that and then branch out into oracle decks and specialty decks as you'd like.  (My favorite deck right now is the Isis Oracle ... it's so mega intense, I haven't yet seen, much less even studied, every card!)

Here's how I learned the tarot:

~ Get a notebook just for tarot. Something pretty and cool (moleskin, rocks!) worked best for me so I was excited to use it. 

~ Organize the deck into each suit, then by ascending order -- Ace, 2... to Queen and King

~ For each card, sit with it and write down your impressions (on one page and leaving the facing page blank).  Study the images, note your intuitions, what the card evoked and very your first gut reactions. 

~ On the second run, read the meaning of each card and write this on the opposite facing page.

~ Review your notebook and make friends with the card.  Get to know each character.  Every card carries their own story.  Sit with each and try to reconcile what you felt initially and what the most common meaning is.

I've found since I learned the tarot, the meanings are highly personal and yet very archetypal. I don't like the King of Swords - he's a dick - but still necessary in some cases.  Sometimes my attention is drawn to a specific image on the card (I was playing with the Page of Pentacles during a reading last week and noticed my attention kept being drawn to his red hat.  It turns out the person being discussed was recovering from brain tumors!) 

As in all our soul work, what it means to us is of most value.

If you'd like resources get some books, play online or find a local teacher. 

The Tarot Revealed by Eden Grey is awesome for it gives the alchemical and ancient meaning of each image on the card.  I like to seep in the cards so if you dig all the juicy details, this book is a must!


Working with teachers is also of great support, but is never the only method upon which you want to rely.  I've worked with 2 different teachers and both had completely different meanings for the cards.  Both are highly respected readers in her own right, so their use of the tarot becomes an extension of her individual psychic gifts.  However as a student, it only confused and frustrated me.  I'm a bit of a rebel, so learning on my own proved the most satisfying.

The cards will talk and give you another tool of connecting with your own intuition.  The characters and imagery play in the ancient places and inspire stories.  Allow the cards to reveal themselves to you and share the story that gives you the guidance you seek.Most of all, sweet love, trust what's coming through!  Allow the Tarot to be an amelioration of your own knowingness.