the love of the Mother

I have been growing fan of Jesus for some time. Exploring our relationship in past lives and deepening my communion with him, however... Mother Mary has been largely absent from my encounters.

I imagined myself to be in devotion to the great Mother, in service to the Goddess in all forms and manifestations.  And yet, from Mother Mary, there seemed to be a pervading silence.  As if I didn't know how to connect or feel her at all.  

I have grappled with this-- feeling left out, sad, disappointed, unworthy even, as that little voice in me is so quick to go into hurt.

Her return came this summer, in my own Dark Night of the Soul...  

It began with a whack.  

A client came in wearing a medallion that blazed itself upon my 3rd eye.  I was unable to move, in awe of the visions I was being given and, in an instant, I began to sob.  Not delicate lady sniffles either but body wrenching, air gasping, unabashed crying.  

Intense yes, but so deeply needed, craved in that moment, I was left without words.  And the blessed soul who was sitting across from me awaiting her own magical healing didn't quite know what to say.  (thanks again to AV for your amazing generosity and strength in that moment, the gift you gave me is profound!)

The necklace was a gift from Lourdes, about as direct a connection with the Sacred Mother as one can get.  While I have visited this place in shamanic space with a few enlightened clients, it was this direct communication that catapulted her love back into my world.

In that moment, I felt such love, tenderness and the undeniable embrace of being truly held.

And it was then that the fear started to dissolve...

A week later, a 2nd visitation.  Receiving a Higher Brain Living activation from my friend Michelle, Mother Mary's presence filled the room and over me she whispered, "by your birthday, this will all be done."

Her words answered a question I hadn't even dared to ask.  I couldn't comprehend at that moment even what they meant or how this would come to pass.  

Collectively with Jesus, Mother Mary and other so the Essenes, I was lifted.  The terror soothed and more messages flowed that have continued to come to pass in recent weeks.  

The Return has been life altering and deep.  My heart now holds a new resonance and on it is emblazoned TRUST.  I imagined myself to be a woman of faith before, but now I know within my every cell a new harmony... and one which holds and lifts me in every waking second!

Not to say, I won't still cuss and drink and dance like a dork, but FAITH empowers us with the certainty to be more of ourselves.  A blessing that I am enough and a reminder I have the power to change everything in my reality.  Watch out darlin, because this world's about to change!  

A Question of Faith

I consider myself a woman of great faith, devotion to God and a dedication to my spiritual path are among those things most sacred to me.  What I do comes from God, I deliver His messages in honor and integrity and feel myself to be a conduit of His Divine Light.

Faith is a deeply personal journey and one that should never be taken lightly.  I respect all paths and honor each person's mission to cultivate this most necessary relationship with the Divine.

I work in a largely Christian community and while clients may be interested in seeing me, some feel it is a challenge to their current beliefs.   I don't ever find this to be the case.... having a psychic reading and loving Jesus are in no way at odds! I believe in a faith that allows us to have a direct relationship with God...  prayer, meditation and service are all ways we can be in this direct communion. 

I had this same conversation with a client who had contemplated calling me for over a year.  Susan (shared with her permission) came in last month for her 2nd reading! I asked if she would talk about how her experience and concerns had played out.  I found her words helpful and am grateful she allowed me to share it. 

Healers working in integrity can bring great clarity and peace of mind.  It is never a substitute for medical or psychiatric care, nor even good common sense.  But in the best of circumstances, ethical psychics can provide insight and direction when your own thoughts, feelings or beliefs are tripping you up.

It is not a question of faith, but in service to your own Truth, to allow your intuition to get a second opinion. (And. my thanks to Clairbook for such a witty tagline!) 

Getting Unstuck is Uncomfortable

Getting unstuck is uncomfortable.  It's the comfort that got you stuck in the first place.  When finding a coach, healer, or therapist to work with, your aim is to find the person best suited to get you unstuck... that singular soul who can assist you in finding the triggers, the resistance and the discomfort -- and challenge you to heal it.  This challenge can come in many forms but, be prepared that it will not be the most enjoyable part of the journey.

Stuck-ness causes grief, stress, sleeplessness, depression, weight gain and general dis-ease with oneself.

Getting unstuck requires not only action, but also courage, truth and faith.  We have to have the faith that something else better comes after.  And at times, in the muck and mire of our own irritation and stench, faith feels like a farce.    

When we are unstuck, when we are in the perfect space of neutrality, of flow, of commune with the Divine, of peace, there, we discover abundant energy.  There is grace and serendipity; magic even.  This peace and flow is what lies on the other side of stuck.  Move through what makes you uncomfortable to embrace that which is yours. This truth is filled with elation, joy and glee and sometimes working toward it is the only motivation that matters. 

Unstuck is uncomfortable but it is the only way to move through, to reclaim who we were and who we are meant to be.  So when someone triggers you, don't look for an apology.  Instead give thanks that they are showing you exactly the space in you that needs to be healed right now.  Triggers are nasty lil buggers that move us out of peace and into agitation-- and in that momentary flip, they show us perfectly and clearly where it is that still needs some healin'.

Getting unstuck takes work!  It's not easy.  Easy is what gets us stuck and Comfy is staying there.  When we work on ourselves, unearthing the very best of who we are at our core, while temporarily uncomfortable, yields the most miraculous of truths!

Self work is also the most rewarding, for it frees up energy, unlocks the spaces in ourselves we did not know existed.  This allows more of us to be viable, dynamic, and alive in this world. 

What lies on the other side of stuck? 

We become who we've dreamed of being.  We inspire those we love and the Divine Dance that is life, flows in every way imaginable.