I'm always hopeful I can find ways to bridge my world with that of the "everyone"... So here's the first of a new series attempting to explain what these kooky New Age words mean in easy to digest language.
Ascension is essentially the graduation of humanity. We have been glorified apes living, consuming and destroying the planet.... I say this with no political agenda or irksome fist throwin' simply stating bare bones... Our Ascension grants us a spiritual aspect that is now equal to that of our physical nature.
Some may say the Ascension allows us to leave Earth and explore galaxies beyond our own. My own belief is that Ascension puts us back on equal footing with the Ascended Masters (like Jesus, Buddha, Mother Mary) and our Angels. We become better than human by embracing our inherent spiritual nature and thereby evolving or graduating from our ape-ness.
As we watch the world around us, change is in the air... emotionally, physically, culturally and planetarily, everything is stirred up right now. What a gift this can be once we can see, heal and release the triggers and resulting memories it is revealing to us.
And schiet, this is never easy work. Grueling, sobbing, and messy is how it feels to me. This season of Metal, expressed in the Autumn is always a challenge for me.
Let's get neutral for a sec and postpone my verbosity... If we look back to ancient practices, the Chinese saw connections in everything. The classic healing manuscript the Yellow Emperor's Classic of Medicine reminds us Metal is all about:
- breathe
- inspiration
- grief
- letting go
- value & importance
- love of the father
My brain translates this as:
- stern & cold
- judgemental
- practical
- shallow
- not good enough
My interpretation of metal is whack yes, but its my truth so it's mine to own and clear. By living this belief of Metal, I have been denying myself all its gifts and it's teachings. As much as I love the fall, because of my blind spots, I've made it an incredibly uncomfortable time for myself. Silly brain!
So, I set out as any person ready for healing does... kicking and screaming! I scheduled for myself a cosmic ass whoop so big, I couldn't help but fall apart-- acupuncture, past life regression and 2 energetic healing sessions all in a week. Crazy to be certain, but I knew I needed help to shake off whatever giant brambles are holding me back.
I was a mess by the weekend, feeling like I had lost myself... questioning everything in my world... and feeling utterly unconnected to this thing called Metal-- this core expression of nature that I was completely unable to touch. I was vulnerable and eager but still unsure what came next. Then it happened... a true to life death that culled it all and brought the gift of resolution.
My favorite college professor died. Brutal fucking pancreatic cancer, the beast that also took out my grandfather (who coincidentally died 25 years ago today!) and my celestial brother, Bill Hicks. Remember this is all connected -- The pancreas in Chinese 5 Element is the store-house of ideas... perhaps they were all just too damned full of inspiration!
Hal taught me to see the magic in life again. He inspired and lifted me in ways I didn't yet know at 19 years old. He saw me for who I was and championed me to feel and be fearless. Inspiration was guaranteed whether he was teaching German (sorry Professor, my tongue never did quite get in the swing) or Goethe, Schopenhauer's philosophy or the societal importance of fairy tales... Hal brought passion and mysticism into every day. I took every class and an extra year of college just to have more time being in the presence of this great man. I can see now how many of my passions, my core values, were birthed in his presence and by his light.
As my boyfriend of that time so aptly said: "He made us believe". Grieving his passing, he's been quite present helping me heal. Weird noises in my house have appeared that I've never heard in my 4 years here. Ticks and scratches totally foreign to my home. Even my family has been aware there's something visiting us. Grief has been very present for me. Coupled with my intense week of healing, I'm in a perfect moment of acute vulnerability to heal.
I began wanting to write about Metal and the Fall and all the power and healing that can occur. But I'm too puddly right now. A blubbering raw monkey tyring to inspire others. Psah....
What Dr. Becker has helped me see so clearly is .... Hal was the perfect Metal-- inspired and fatherly, he challenged us all to be our best and more importantly to be mensch. I think all I really wanted was for him to be proud of me... proud of the woman I became and not the irresponsible young adult he knew. In his presence I felt special, important and in the heartbeat of God.
From the other side, He offered me a healing-- the profound gift of forgiveness.
Shame blocked my ability to feel and embrace my Metal. And Hal has helped me heal it. 13 years later, I can finally let it go. And this is the true value of the season.
Hal has reminded me our memories always judge us more harshly than God/Goddess/Spirit does. So embrace your shame, your flaws, your colossal f' ups and
bring it on. We have no space for it, no time for these heavy and
wasteful emotions that keep us from being who God asked us to be. Find
what inspires you, what hurts you and what ails you and blocks you.
This is not comfortable work, but it is essential. Use this season to let go of what no longer serves your heart, let go of what eats at your soul and breathe your true self back into the world.
I've never fancied myself creative. In high school I was a theater kid-- go figure, with my drama, it's shocking, I know!-- surrounded by friends who had creative impulses dripping from every pore. I was a dreamer unable to put into 3d my grandiose ideas, visions and musings. Alas, I felt muse-less and while far from uninspired, certainly a artistic stump.
When I was invited to participate in RAW Denver, I was given an opportunity to not only share my work with many, but also to see myself in a new way... as an artist!
Artists must walk the razors edge... unaffected by observations and criticism to deliver to the world something fearless and bold, something that moves people to feel something bigger than themselves. The true artist moves into a place of unnamed creation to share a unique self expression birthed from the inner worlds allowing the observer to find within themselves something before unnoticed. A healing can be given in the most pure of moments that wasn't even being sought.
Well heck, sign me up baby because this is precisely what I do each and every day. Walking the razors edge, unable to be planned or edited, I move into a space of pure communication with Spirit to bring into this world the healing you most need. Holy cow, I guess I am an artist. I'll work on healing my inner 12 year old now and share with you something we can both be very proud of!
The summer has whomped me...in only the most glorious of ways! My business is full, my family is thriving and I've launched a new mentoring program that is so freakin' exhilarating! But with all the bustle, I need to find more ways to be present in this moment.
Grounding, meditating and even just plain breathing are all ways we can do this. And while it may sound simple enough, my daughter taught me that this too must be learned, practiced and mastered in order for it to be a helpful tool.
While grounding may sound like more new age hoo ha, get over it and remember why we have these tools in the first place: Awareness is the only way out of chaos! If we have awareness of self, we don't get stuck, don't get sick, and know how to be the master in our life. If we have these keys, we not only thrive but also model for those around us how they can too!
A couple of things to do everyday:
~ breathe deep, open, pit-of-your-belly breaths!
~ feel your feet, bring yourself fully into your body and learn to make friends with it
~ cultivate peace ... find something that brings you quiet and you'll start to
feel how nurturing it is
~ stay out of your head ... your brain was designed to keep your physical body alive,
not to run the show!
~ feel, don't think
~ if you find yourself stuck, do something that brings you joy
To be fully present takes some practice. When you are fully available to others and the universe, you'll discover the most wonderful blessings find you! People notice you, clients are drawn to you, relationships are easier and you miraculously find yourself happy. And when you get low, as we all do, you know how to move through it with grace.
This is what I have been grappling with as my love, yes LOVE, for Jesus comes in stronger and stronger.
So let me clear the air-- I was raised largely without religion, without a concept of dogma and church. We were raised in a loving home with a family who allowed us to pursue "religion" on our own terms. This seeming lack was a beautiful gift allowing my relationship to God and my innate curiosity to lead to me to MY path, not one that was prescribed nor one I was chastised for not keeping.
I explored Buddhism, Christianity, and Hinduism with equal zeal. Picking and choosing the aspects that made the most sense to me. I was as comfortable in a church as I was playing on the 2 acres of Louisiana swamp we called home-- feeling God in both locations equally! What I found was in nature, I could connect, feel and ponder without anyone I telling me I was wrong.
After a couple of years in a Baptist school in Baton Rouge and being punished (detention, scolding and calls home to parents) for not believing what I was told to believe, I found "religion" to be a degradation of what I felt in my own heart. I turned from organized religion and flitted my way into my own brand of spirituality.
So when Jesus came to me in 2005, asking that we have a conversation, I told him I wasn't one of "His" and he should look elsewhere. At that point in my burgeoning psychic career, I was receiving guidance from Angels, my own Spirit Guides and Teachers I wasn't savvy yet enough to identify who was who. Yet when Mary Magdalene showed up, bringing Jesus with her, it was my first experience working with Ascended Masters -- beneficent beings who are master teachers dedicated to enlightening humanity.
I told them both in fact to go away... sure that a heathen child such as myself couldn't possibly be who they were looking for. They both persisted, Mary providing information that she still insists will be a book and Jesus with a loving and gentle presence I have come to rely on.
Last year, my work with Him began to take on more of a mentorship as he began teaching me some of the more estoeric teachings of the Essene tradition. I can recall past lives I worked with him closely and find his guidance to be of the utmost benefit in my spiritual path. Going through grief of my own, I relied heavily on him... to the point of near co-dependence! Ha! In calling to him to soothe my grief, and protect my heart, I lost my own inner strength... I became dependent and needy.
I again asked him to step back, which he did with great respect, allowing me to return in my own time. The year since has been one of warrior like insights and healing work-- powerful, majestic and sword yielding as I overcame the grief of losing my Gram & my child within a month.
As a gentle wind, he appeared this spring, asking if our work could resume. He expressed his pride in my reclamation of my inner strength and suggested that he may simply augment rather than replace it. Wow-- this I was not prepared for! What Divine Love, patience, and grace he allowed me to find on my own as he gently allowed my journey to return to him.
It was then that I would hear myself exclaiming to clients: "Yes, but do you really know the real Jesus?!?" How could I temper my overjoyed experience with him without the gush of dogma rushing in? It is still a question I try and balance but I know him to be kind, generous, ever loving and so very wise.
Here's a bit of what he's taught me:
- He wishes to appear as hippie brother rather than dying man on a cross ("you know, like guy next to you at a Phish concert")
- He is funny as all heck and amazingly detached from "that thing that happened back there"
- He never takes himself too seriously, so we should all just relax a bit and let ego move aside
- Women are the teachers of faith... our connection to God/Goddess/Source
- There is no creation without the work of the Sacred Masculine and Divine Feminine, "without life form is empty." It is up to man to create form and forge reality and it is the gift of the women to breathe life into it to allow it a place on this earth.
- Jesus was a shaman! he was healer and worked with the invisible energies to benefit his community -- yup, I still want to make it a bumper sticker
- Death was meant to be a most joyous act, a celebratory return to God not one filled with fear and anxiety
- Those sincere souls wishing to find him should practice cultivating a personal relationship with him through meditation, prayer and even channeling, rather than seeking it in the Bible or church
I know him as Brother and am grateful for those moments he does gift me with. He appears often for clients in session and I try my best to represent him well. I love him like I do no other and feel lifted by him in every waking moment-- this is done by my choosing, and his grace, without the need for any church, book, or intermediary.
The resurgence
in the Feminine Divine is no coincidence With the turmoil in the world
today, we need a benevolent Mother to bring peace to our planet. She is
re-emerging to help us transition from a heavy and dense world into a
world of renewed hope, creativity, and compassion for all living beings.
It was Her gentle ways that were in place long before the patriarchy came
into power. A balance between the divine feminine and sacred masculine
is sorely needed to restore balance to our world and to ourselves. Cultivating traits from each aspect encourages us to become whole, balanced and integrated.
Reawaken your Goddess connection! Intuitive sessions with the Goddess allows you to reclaim your own majesty and to live a life of more joy, vitality, and passion. Within each of us resides a divine god and a divine goddess -- although some of us may have forgotten our own power and divinity.
Guidance from the Goddesses:
~reminds you of your radiance;
~ restores your power, vitality, and passion;
~ reconnects you to your heart’s desire -- your true reason for living;
~ polishes the brilliance you have worked so hard to share with the world;
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is a confidential and unique conversation with the Divine … ask
questions and gain
~ clarity while amplifying your natural essence
Get to know the various faces of the Great Goddess: From Kwan Yin and Isis to Ix Chel and Mother Mary -- Meet the Goddess who holds a message specifically for you.
I create a a channel of communication and invites in the Goddess who offers to work intimately with you. During session we create the doorway
so you can connect to Her anytime. Each session is unique and alive
with the spirit of the Goddess! The Goddess' influence can be felt in your daily life by bringing you a deep sense of connection and unconditional love.
You will be renewed and empowered to live your best life.
Healing sessions can rekindle your relationship to the Great Mother and
allow a new path of inspiration and guidance in your spiritual practice.
The Goddess' healing energy is so refreshing ... it can feel like a
warm bath: Soothing, comforting, and life affirming!
This healing is not just for women. In fact, men can greatly benefit from
bringing the Great Mother back into their lives.
Step into this dance and remind yourself of the love and passion that awaits
you in your heart.
For
millenia, the Tarot has been a trusted asset of healers and psychics.
Its rich imagery and archetypal characters are easily understood from
culture to culture. The many stories told through these cards (and their
accompanying life lesson) allows you to easily identify a similar story
unfolding within your own life yielding clarity and concrete options.
Due to their vivid colors and accurate depictions, you can readily
recall the pictures and effortlessly remember the messages you received
during your session.
Tarot
is an amazingly powerful tool to assist you in ANY life transition. It
gives us a peek into the possible future so we can better see what may
lie ahead, and being aware of potential obstacles enables us to navigate
them more smoothly!
~ Current Life Situations
~ Relationships & Love
~ Career & School
~ Family & Personal issues affecting you right now!
Tarot Readings capture what is
energetically swirling in the ethers RIGHT NOW regarding a specific
issue! Based on the energy of this current situation, you are privy to
different ways of responding and can choose a more desired path. Tarot
is an incredibly useful vehicle for self empowerment and taking charge
of your own destiny.
Most readings will cover the immediate 30-60 days. For this reason, you
can consult the Tarot more frequently. As you effect change, the
readings will reflect your personal work and give you clearly defined
next steps.
As with all my reading, the session will leave you filled with hope, joy and feeling inspired to handle anything!
