Wanting What the Soul Craves

You know those days where you just feel blah?  Not inspired, stump-like and wondering where the heck the magic in your own life went?  I had one of those last week.  

I complained, I stewed and then I pulled out the Desire Map.  Whoooosh... Synchronicities started flying in left and right (8, count em 8 coincidences, that I had experienced and overlooked in that day alone) and I got to the bottom of my shit.  What I really want more than anything...

I want to be Worshipped 

 

As soon as I wrote it, I panicked.  "Oh my god, did you really write this?" shouted my brain.   What a selfish diva-y thing to want. 

I breathed through my heart whilst it seized up and stepped back.  Obviously, yes some part of me really wants to be worshipped.


Ok, just breathe and allow.  If I do as the Goddess that is Danielle LaPorte reminds us: that by following our Desires, we find the way to the fullest expression of our Soul: then I must honor this little truth and see what happens if I embrace it.  

"The fact is, they are your current desires and they're trying to show you something: the way to your Soul."   

Desire Map pg. 60    

So thus embracing, writing, drawing, and journaling the heck out of this truth, I went to bed dreaming upon my being worshiped and letting go of the Guilt, Shame, Ego that tried to come in with it. 

The next day, I went to the office and, lo and behold, the worshipping had begun.

- a bag of chocolate sat upon my desk and  a fresh orchid on my side table -

No note, no card, no "hey thanks for that" message, just the gifts lay waiting.  

And even a week later, it continues... I received not one, but two, amazing gifts of hand made jewelry from clients.  Both so soulful and lovely in their perfection and neither artist knowing the depth of the gift she has shared. 

I feel so very blessed and honor the part of me that really wants to be worshipped.  When we can be in full out honesty with our Soul, the synchronicities can begin to flow and more of Us comes into the world.  

"I am in service to the Universe and by honoring my own truth, I can serve in the full magnitude of the the potential my soul holds for me."  Thus is my prayer and how I temper my ego each time core desires rise up to the surface.

Learning the Tarot

The Tarot is a complex and intuitive joy ride.  If you want to learn, be patient but also know you personal meaning carries more weight than anyone else's interpretations!  Dive in and enjoy the journey. 

I have been a full on medium and intuitive most of my life, but it was only 2 summers ago that I incorporated the tarot into my psychic tool box.  I enjoy it's rich imagery and find deeper meaning the more I use it.  Some readings are just straight up tarot readings-- allowing the wisdom of the cards to be the only vehicle for messages to arrive-- while other times I will allow the messages to come in and the tarot to act as confirmation to what I'm receiving. 


We will all have our own rhythm, story and relationship with the Tarot.  It is a beneficial tool for personal insight and soul development.   If you'd like to learn start with the traditional Rider Waite, it's the oldest deck and contains the most potent archetypal imagery.  Learn that and then branch out into oracle decks and specialty decks as you'd like.  (My favorite deck right now is the Isis Oracle ... it's so mega intense, I haven't yet seen, much less even studied, every card!)

Here's how I learned the tarot:

~ Get a notebook just for tarot. Something pretty and cool (moleskin, rocks!) worked best for me so I was excited to use it. 

~ Organize the deck into each suit, then by ascending order -- Ace, 2... to Queen and King

~ For each card, sit with it and write down your impressions (on one page and leaving the facing page blank).  Study the images, note your intuitions, what the card evoked and very your first gut reactions. 

~ On the second run, read the meaning of each card and write this on the opposite facing page.

~ Review your notebook and make friends with the card.  Get to know each character.  Every card carries their own story.  Sit with each and try to reconcile what you felt initially and what the most common meaning is.

I've found since I learned the tarot, the meanings are highly personal and yet very archetypal. I don't like the King of Swords - he's a dick - but still necessary in some cases.  Sometimes my attention is drawn to a specific image on the card (I was playing with the Page of Pentacles during a reading last week and noticed my attention kept being drawn to his red hat.  It turns out the person being discussed was recovering from brain tumors!) 

As in all our soul work, what it means to us is of most value.

If you'd like resources get some books, play online or find a local teacher. 

The Tarot Revealed by Eden Grey is awesome for it gives the alchemical and ancient meaning of each image on the card.  I like to seep in the cards so if you dig all the juicy details, this book is a must!


Working with teachers is also of great support, but is never the only method upon which you want to rely.  I've worked with 2 different teachers and both had completely different meanings for the cards.  Both are highly respected readers in her own right, so their use of the tarot becomes an extension of her individual psychic gifts.  However as a student, it only confused and frustrated me.  I'm a bit of a rebel, so learning on my own proved the most satisfying.

The cards will talk and give you another tool of connecting with your own intuition.  The characters and imagery play in the ancient places and inspire stories.  Allow the cards to reveal themselves to you and share the story that gives you the guidance you seek.Most of all, sweet love, trust what's coming through!  Allow the Tarot to be an amelioration of your own knowingness. 

Through Death's Doorway

One of my biggest passions is assisting soul's from our world to the next.  I find my work as psychopomp one of the most rewarding!  

I'm not so good seeing people out (the actual death transition, I leave to the angels of hospice!) but I am often called on to help soul's make their journey clearly to the other side.  

I am a soul conductor.  Helping people make their way from the land of the living to the blissful land of Spirit.  I assist in making their journey to the afterlife.  The Egyptians had intricate prayers and rituals, yet our society simply offers condolences and elaborate funerary rites that often do not serve the soul at any level.   



I received this question today and thought it worth sharing:

"Hi Andye, 

I had a old friend that just passed.....I think he stopped by to say bye.  Is it to early to tell?"


--- "Not at all!  Within 3 days of passing, he's making his rounds.  Up until the funeral it's perfectly normal for him to visit and say howdy to friends and loved ones.  After the funeral, 6 weeks of quiet is needed for the soul to transition to the other side."




I shared some of these teachings when my cousin Gale passed.  He taught us much about Dying with Grace and I am happy to carry on his wisdom.


Death is a welcome and beautiful gift. To regard it with fear and distrust only harms the soul.  Please talk to your loved ones about this transition so we can lift the current consciousness that permeates our society!

The Lion's Stargate of July 29th

We have a massive astrological event July 29th that promises to shift the world... both inner and outer realities will be affected.  I'm not just being dramatic (though us Cancerian souls quite excel at that!) astrologers across the world are talking about this Stargate.  The last time it occurred, it brought the end to World War 2 on Feb. 7, 1945.  This is the true birth to the Age of Aquarius.  

I'm planning on some ceremony and quiet time to absorb and learn.

And honestly, I'm more giddy about this cosmic happening than any other yet this summer.  I can't contain my excitement and keep feeling something big is upon us. 

As I'm no astrologer, here's what I've been gathering...

from the powerful Liv Woodford:

The portal opens: Moon enters Taurus 1:43am EDT
Moon sextile Neptune 9:45am - Star of David (the two Grand Trines) is activated
Moon opposite Saturn 10:41am
MOON SQUARE SUN 1:43pm EDT – A Tetrahedron (perfect Triangle) is activated
Moon sextile Jupiter 3:12pm
Moon trine Venus 5:48pm - Merkaba (Flower Formation) is activated
Moon trine Pluto 7:17pm
The portal closes: Moon sextile Mars 10:09pm EDT


The Water Grand Trine (Saturn, Neptune, Jupiter, Mars and Mercury) is about connectivity, about deepening our intuition and being able to bring our vision into reality through following, trusting and paying attention to our feelings.  With Mercury in the mix, it also reflects that success will come through communicating our vision and collaborating with others.

The Earth Grand Trine (Venus, Pluto, Moon) helps to establish what we are wanting to bring into the world.  It assures and helps us connect to the resources we need to ground the dream in reality.  It supports and fuels the promise of the Water Grand Trine.

Tomorrow feels like an opportunity for a reset, an alignment that will allow us to manifest changes on this planet that support us in creating the New Earth.  Be in your intention and participate with rest of the beings of light to bring in something truly transforming. 

If you'd like to dive deeper, the Mystic Mamma offers a fabulous compilation of inspiring thoughts for the day.  

Sheshat, the Immaculate Holder of the Akashic Records

In November 2008, I was visited during one of my meditations by a Goddess calling herself Sheshat. She appeared as an intimate and wise mentor, yet I had never before heard of her. In our discourse, she asked I learn directly from her, shying away from outside research and validation of who she is and what she does - of course, this piqued my interest but also my hesitation. To my delight, these past 5 years have been simply amazing quietly re-learning her wisdom, and I'm glad to announce she is FINALLY ready to let her words and message be made public!!


WHO IS SHESHAT

Sheshat is an Ascended Master and along with her lover Thoth, they both successfully ascended just prior to the fall of Atlantis. She appeared again to the ancient Egyptians and was credited as the Goddess of the Library.

An exceptionally tall beauty --dark and luscious-- she is in fact a Nubian Queen exuding radiant "big mama" energy. She walked the Earth during the earliest days of the Nubian civilization and was eventually adopted by the Egyptians. She loves us beyond measure... as evidenced by appearing in our most significant times (especially now) to aid our civilization in advancement. Calling herself the Mother of Ascension, she is here to lovingly guide us through the transitions beyond 2012.

A creator Goddess, Sheshat is incredibly forgiving and generous. She soothes us by erasing our fear-based constructs of guilt and blame recognizing instead the crucial importance of every choice we make in our soul's growth.

Sheshat radiates! She is joyous and compassionate! Simply invoking Her we are comforted for She sees our Highest Truth and shines back to us the expansiveness of our Being.

Known as the Keeper of the Library, the connection between "the Library" and the Akashic Records was fairly obvious! Sheshat has shown me all three phases of recording the deeds of humanity: The creation, the destruction, and the still living legacy of the Akashic Records. As Mother of Ascension, Holder of the Immaculate Akashic Records, Keeper of the Great Book of Souls, it is She who sees all time and is able to weave the "truth" of each soul.

The Library She kept was in fact the Akashic Records-- the intimate history of each soul. She is able to SEE each individual person and write his/her part into the Tree of Life. No falsehoods can exist within the Akashic Records for it is the ultimate Source of Truth for each living being on this planet. No one shall pass -literally-- through the Gates of Ascension without consulting Her directly, because She is a gatekeeper knowing the truth, purity and intention in the heart of each man and is a required "stamp of approval" for those aspiring Ascension.


SHESHAT'S MANY ROLES

Throughout our work over these past 5 years, She has gradually let me expand my scope researching a few resources which do mention Her by name. She explains each title (or role) giving us a more robust image of Her... solidifying Her role in the transformation of mankind.

You may find Her name spelled many ways: Shesat and Seshat, for example, both refer to Her. In confirming the pronunciation of Her name, She also provided a breathing technique (the most basic tool of mystery schools) to correctly pronounce Her name. I will refer to Her as She requested: "Sheshat."

One image I have been able to find shows her writing, actually creating the Tree of Life, with the most unusual crown I have ever seen. According to Egyptian culture, each deity had a unique crown identifying the goddess or god. You can always tell Isis by Her throne, Hathor by Her horns, and Sorquet by Her scorpion. 

Sheshat's unique crown looks likes a 7-line exclamation point. I jokingly call her the "Aha" Goddess for her most distinct crown because it kind of reminds me of a light bulb going on over your head, as if you had just gotten a grand idea or a moment of clarity! She explained this crown serves as a stargate to Ascension and will have much more to teach us in future writings about its specific usage.




A few references to Sheshat refer to her as the Goddess of Astronomy, the Goddess of Fate, and simply the Female Scribe. She is heralded as master of mathematics and measurement and was invoked prior to any sacred construction. She has helped me understand each of Her many titles so we can better comprehend the myriad ways She is assisting us now.

Her name literally translates as "female scribe," although at this, She just smiles, because this translation completely minimizes Her other roles in the long history of our Earth and Her assistance in mankind's ascension. She was, in fact, Thoth's lover and equal counter-part acting as the Divine Feminine to his Sacred Masculine. Together they created the Tree of Life-- a system of record keeping for Souls (the Akashic Records). Symbolically, the Tree also represents our connection both to the Earth and the Heavens. She is a Creator Goddess (with Thoth) continually weaving the fabric of time, events, and the intention behind every action, emotion, and thought into the Tree of Life as each person lives their day.

As the Goddess of Fate, She has remarkable perspective. She was in the beginning of time and shall be at the end. For me, She has been most helpful in reminding me what really matters in life, and which frivolous insignificant triggers I can avoid which take me off my Path.

Call upon Sheshat when you are in great conflict. With Her universal perspective, She can help you see the reality of your situation and help you reconcile the effects on your soul growth. She can assist us in letting go of things with great ease... simply ask Her to lift from you anything keeping you from the truth of your soul's evolution.

Desire Map your way into Bliss

One of the most frequent requests I hear is that people feel "in a rut" and want to get back to themselves... be it joy, career, relationships.  People are having a hard time feeling good in this crazy ass world.

At least once a day, I suggest to invest in the Desire Map.  So take this as your sign if you've been sittin' on the fence. 

Danielle Laporte is changing the way I see the world and myself in it.  Why do we choose unhappy over those things which serve our soul.  Why do we turn away from joy and toward obligation?

"Because it's selfish" is most often the answer. 

What if being in service to those things that bring us bliss, and give us the most energy, is exactly what God asked us to do down here?


The Desire Map puts you back in touch with the Truth. We have to get out of our own way, break from what we should do and find what we WANT to do in order to be in service to our Soul. I called it the Valiant Pursuit of Joy and suggested ways to be in service to your bliss... Danielle's program helps you unearth it, baby!

Get a life coach, book a session, or do all the gorgeous work your own with the help of the Desire Map. It comes with a PRINTED book (it’s embossed, even!) a downloadable book, audio book, a series of audio contemplations; a private, online Desire Map space; an app, and 12 weeks of weekly inspiration to help people make desire-mapping a true practice. 

Everything you need to get you to the core of your own Soul.  A psychic reading will do the same, but the process of self discovery is really too delicious to resist. 

Here's a video I shared on YouTube last February... before I saw Danielle in SLC or read the book.  Guess we're playing in the same sumptuous, soul serving waters!

Woo Woo Word of the Moment :: Energy Vampire

Sure vampires may look cool with that immortality thing and all, but blood, my love, blood, is what keeps this glamour alive.  Energy Vampires (or Psychic Vampires) are no different, except instead of blood consumption, they suck energy.  Just as exhausting and damaging, these peeps, suck the life force out of us, leaving us haggard and wiped.

They are harder to spot physically (no easy sparkle skin or preternatural white gleen... or duh ,the one inch incisors) but you can most certainly feel when you've been zapped by one.  These are the people who leave you feeling insecure, powerless, and even tired when you leave an interaction.  You feel unhappy when you walk away even though "friend time" is intended to be meaningful and life giving!  Just think on this and I'm sure you can identify an encounter.

... I once had a boss who was an active addict.  Every time I would enter the office, I would feel nervous and on edge.  After our meetings, even when I had felt I stood my ground, I felt wiped and defeated.  He meant no harm, this was simply the way he had learned to get by in the world...


In most cases, the energy vampire does not know they are doing this.  They may have learned from parents or adapted as a means of survival.  The intentions are rarely menacing yet their behaviors are undeniable.


We all owe it to ourselves and those around us to take responsibility for our energy... where it goes, and how it's acquired. If you discover yourself creating encounters that make others feel defensive and uneasy, you may be an unconscious energetic vampire. 

When you find yourself on the other side of these psychic vampires:

- allow yourself to ground and find your center.  The earth can support and refill you whenever you need Her to.

 - surround yourself in a bubble of golden pink light.  You will find yourself at ease and can then begin to reclaim your space.  You will feel better almost instantly and have the ability to re-set your boundaries.

- love yourself enough to leave the darn situation!  Stepping back and refusing to engage is the most loving act you can do for yourself.

Repeated exposure and codependent tendencies can actually attract more of these vampires to you.  Boundaries that respect your personal space and energy are needed.  You are an immense being of light and if you don't share it, feel it, be it, there are plenty of others who want to lay claim on your brilliance. 


Shamanic healing and  energy work is always a benefit when you are recovering from these encounters and can also assist you in learning to expand your energy to feel more like the version of you God intended.   


Share your ooey gooey love on this planet and aim to make every person you meet smile when you walk away.  This is the New Earth -we are creating and it's up to us to choose what we put into it.